Almost gone… :(

Summer is almost gone…

😦

Today I woke up at 9:50 AM. I attempted to get up at 8:30…but didn’t succeed.

Oh well. Anyway, at 10 AM I had a gnawing feeling so I decided to eat 1 Flat-Out wrap while watching The View.

& drank some Diet Mtn Dew of course.

Afters..from 10:20-11:25 AM I jogged/walked on the Treadmill (Jogged 2 miles in 23 minutes, 2 miles in 26 minutes, 1 mile in 15 minutes…5 miles total in 64 minutes!)

Then came typical lunch…with mom and David.

I ate another Flat-Out wrap, 3 small chunks of Fajita Chicken meat, 1/2 bowl of watermelon and an orange popcicle.

Mom left for her interview at GSI at 1…

At 1:20 PM-1:44 PM- I jogged/walked 2 more miles on the Treadmill, which I did in 24 minutes (so far 7 miles on the Treadmill today- AWESOME!)

Well..Now I’m gonna cool down and sip some Diet Mtn Dew…Hopefully the day will continue to be alright πŸ™‚

I finished revising, putting together my entire app until Mom got home…

Decided to watch KUWTK new Bora Bora episode until Dinner…

For dinner I ate a Flat-Out Wrap, over a serving of Fajita Chicken meat, a serving of 4 cheese instant potatoes, a bowl of Watermelon, and a popcicle…

After supper, I kind of wasted time on my laptop I guess, and I held Tiggy and Fluff for a bit.

Mom & I went on a walk at 7- We walked our middle loop and then 2x around Kyes…

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We got back at 8 PM and I had a major snack attack. 😦 😦 😦

I know it was because I did not eat enough calories or fat or protein during the day to satisfy myself at night. So from 8 until midnight I basically ate. Pretty sad, I know.

I had about 12 popcicles (after awhile I began to lose track…)

2 orange bowls full of air popped popcorn with 4-5 servings of cane sugar…

I finished one box of Fiber One Cereal (it had about 5 servings left in it…)

and then I began a second box and ate one entire side (roughly 7.5 servings of Fiber One Original)

Even after all that…I felt bloated but I still felt “hungry”. I have a feeling this was only because I chose poorly and ate mainly carbs.

I finished my “binge” with 3 flat-out wraps.

Not something to be proud of.

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I know I exercised a lot today (7 miles on the treadmill, plus walk with mom…) but I ate pretty poorly. I know nerves were definitely taking advantage of me tonight…I always get somewhat stressed the nights before I work…and I really don’t want to work my shift on Saturday. I’m also freaked about school starting in a week.

I just don’t know how to handle my life.

But I do know one thing…eating like this makes it much, MUCH worse.

Lesson “Learned”:When I do a lot of cardio in a single day like today, I have to eat more fat & protein during the day so I don’t binge this bad or better yet not at all at night.

I also can’t eat like this to cope with my life. I have to listen better to my emotions instead of ignoring them and filling my gut instead. This way of handling my life is just making it completely worse.

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My goal for tomorrow is to not eat ANYTHING when I come home from work. I can have a wrap or possibly 2 during my 15, but I cannot eat anything when I get home at 9:15 tomorrow.Β 

Seriously. This will be hard. Especially since I’ll probably be tired and looking for energy…and most likely will be stressed.

But my goal is to fight back and not eat anything. I ruined tonight and I can’t get away with that.Β 

I do not need to eat like this ever again and that includes most certainly tomorrow.

If I feel like I do…I must just go to bed.

What a day. I could have done much better today. So much better.

XOOX Virgin Olives

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